Tired

I got tired of having one-sided conversations.
I got tired of your yawns.
I got tired of being the one who always took initiative.
I got tired of being the one to walk up to the other.
I got tired of futile attempts at getting to know you.
I got tired of sitting on the other side of the table from you.
I got tired of walking with you.
I got tired of you being a decent human being.
I got tired of you sitting on the fence.

I wish all of this were true because I am tired of lying to myself.