Cabernet is so sweet on Thursday nights because you come home early on Thursday nights.
Silly me, it is Tuesday, and this red wine is not sweet.
It is Tuesday, and this red wine is bitter.
Wednesday, December 16, 2015
The Wait is Over
I learned that there is more than I have ever dreamed of out there waiting for me...
The Second Star to the Right
There are times when it was yesterday.
Then there are times when it was two years ago.
And yet there are times when it is as though it never was.
That is when I know it was true because it can be fleeting.
That is when I know it was true because it can be healing.
That is when I know it was true because it was more than a feeling.
Then there are times when it was two years ago.
And yet there are times when it is as though it never was.
That is when I know it was true because it can be fleeting.
That is when I know it was true because it can be healing.
That is when I know it was true because it was more than a feeling.
Thursday, December 3, 2015
Further
You do not realize that I was jumping hurdles while you were still running your first lap...
This is a Good Thing
Even though there is pain, this is still a good thing.
It started as a good thing.
It was good throughout the journey.
And it ended a good thing.
Even thought there is pain, this is still a good thing.
It started as a good thing.
It was good throughout the journey.
And it ended a good thing.
Even thought there is pain, this is still a good thing.
Half Full
There is still water in your glass.
You kept drinking so much of it.
It was your third refill.
And yet you said, "Never Mind."
I wish I would have heard you sooner.
You kept drinking so much of it.
It was your third refill.
And yet you said, "Never Mind."
I wish I would have heard you sooner.
Last Call
The hardest, most painful thing you will ever do is let go of something that you thought would last forever...
Sunday, November 29, 2015
Staring at the Moon
I thought your lullaby was beautiful.
I think you should sing it often.
Then I started to think about it.
And I wondered why you don't sing often.
Because you have so much to sing about.
You have so much to sing about, and the stars will only shine brighter when you sing.
Please know, the world is waiting for you to sing.
It is waiting to hear your voice...
I think you should sing it often.
Then I started to think about it.
And I wondered why you don't sing often.
Because you have so much to sing about.
You have so much to sing about, and the stars will only shine brighter when you sing.
Please know, the world is waiting for you to sing.
It is waiting to hear your voice...
Ramps
I wonder what it is like to jump in the air and stay there.
I wonder what it is like to flip upside down and land on something still moving.
I wonder what it is like to stand still knowing that something will catch you when you fall.
And the silly thing is that I don't have to wonder.
Post-Op
It's different.
Things will never be quite the way they were before.
But you've found some laughter.
Hold on to that. Hold on to the laughter.
It will bring you back to who you are.
It always does.
Things will never be quite the way they were before.
But you've found some laughter.
Hold on to that. Hold on to the laughter.
It will bring you back to who you are.
It always does.
The Corner
You repeat the same words.
You play the same images.
You tell the same story.
And when you are ready, you'll come out from the corner.
Just know that there are dreams waiting for you.
And I hope that helps you.
You play the same images.
You tell the same story.
And when you are ready, you'll come out from the corner.
Just know that there are dreams waiting for you.
And I hope that helps you.
Duchess Trail
I play the memory of riding around that neighborhood circle over and over again in my mind every winter. Riding in that neighborhood circle is more than coming home and leaving for work.
It was the journey to a long night in the driveway after we had parted ways.
It was where he told me there was more to life than you.
It was where my Dad found grace.
It was where you said I couldn't do that.
It was where I parked crushed dreams.
It was the finish line after a hard audition.
It was the starting line for a long day of shows.
It was the track to the mailbox for that one letter I never received.
It was the trail we took to get away.
It was the trail we took to hide inside.
It was the last time I saw you waving before I took the leap.
It was coming home from the last karaoke.
It was the moment before I told you I got the part.
It was the last mile before I let you go.
It was the second time to make sure the doors were locked
because secrets were kept inside.
Please don't ever think that neighborhood circle is just coming home because it is so much more than a way home...
It was the journey to a long night in the driveway after we had parted ways.
It was where he told me there was more to life than you.
It was where my Dad found grace.
It was where you said I couldn't do that.
It was where I parked crushed dreams.
It was the finish line after a hard audition.
It was the starting line for a long day of shows.
It was the track to the mailbox for that one letter I never received.
It was the trail we took to get away.
It was the trail we took to hide inside.
It was the last time I saw you waving before I took the leap.
It was coming home from the last karaoke.
It was the moment before I told you I got the part.
It was the last mile before I let you go.
It was the second time to make sure the doors were locked
because secrets were kept inside.
Please don't ever think that neighborhood circle is just coming home because it is so much more than a way home...
Puzzles from Years Ago
It is so surprising how Saturday morning cartoons turned into Tuesdays nights going through a high school yearbook wondering where you all went. I wonder if you are happy and if you ever wonder what life elsewhere is like. I wonder if you ever think about leaving and if staying means that you just can not let go. I wonder if Friday night football games are what they used to be and if lunch after Sunday service is filling or empty. I wonder if downtown is a place to be seen and if the café on 6th street is a place to see others.
But most of all, I wonder if you wonder if there is more out there.
Because there is.
And I have found it.
But most of all, I wonder if you wonder if there is more out there.
Because there is.
And I have found it.
Waves
They are shaky.
They are calm.
They are constant.
They are close.
They are far.
They are always changing.
They are huge, whole.
They are broken, uneven.
They are hitting me hard tonight as you sit in your sailboat far from the inland.
And I just hope you sail in tonight before the storm comes.
They are calm.
They are constant.
They are close.
They are far.
They are always changing.
They are huge, whole.
They are broken, uneven.
They are hitting me hard tonight as you sit in your sailboat far from the inland.
And I just hope you sail in tonight before the storm comes.
Tuesday, October 13, 2015
Sunday, October 4, 2015
What Autumn Brought Me
What Autumn brought me was a harvest.
What Autumn brought me was ripe fruit.
What Autumn brought me was leaves dancing on the ground.
What Autumn brought me was something new.
What Autumn brought me was a warm sweater.
What Autumn brought me was fresh air.
What Autumn brought me was a new wind.
What Autumn brought me was a hidden sunshine.
What Autumn brought me was a brewing love.
What Autumn brought me was you.
What Autumn brought me was ripe fruit.
What Autumn brought me was leaves dancing on the ground.
What Autumn brought me was something new.
What Autumn brought me was a warm sweater.
What Autumn brought me was fresh air.
What Autumn brought me was a new wind.
What Autumn brought me was a hidden sunshine.
What Autumn brought me was a brewing love.
What Autumn brought me was you.
Ren
There is a scar on my bottom lip from the first time you kissed me.
There are two scars on my hips from the night we first danced.
There is a scar on my left foot from when you first picked me up.
There is a scar on my right hand from when you first held it.
There is a cut in my heart that I can not yet tell if it will become a scar or wound, but I know that it is healing.
They may think it rather odd to heal from a cut, but that is what we do.
We heal from our cuts.
There are two scars on my hips from the night we first danced.
There is a scar on my left foot from when you first picked me up.
There is a scar on my right hand from when you first held it.
There is a cut in my heart that I can not yet tell if it will become a scar or wound, but I know that it is healing.
They may think it rather odd to heal from a cut, but that is what we do.
We heal from our cuts.
What once was
What once was a whisper is now a voice.
What once was a whimper is now a moan.
What once was an idea is now a world.
What once was a whimper is now a moan.
What once was an idea is now a world.
...healing in the dance
When she dances, the memories come back.
She can sort them out and remember the times.
The steps become the sight, and the movements become the breath.
There is healing in the dance.
So, tonight she dances and she doesn't stop to rest.
Because when she dances, the healing begins.
And all who watch are captivated by peace.
Let her dance.
Let her move.
Let her feel her way through time.
There is healing in the dance.
Monday, September 28, 2015
Moved
Back and forth.
Back and forth.
Back and forth.
Two steps forward.
One step back.
This is a silly dance.
And this is an exhausting dance.
This is a silly dance.
So I think I will stand still and wait until I am moved by the music...
Rusty Pearls
I threw away the necklace you made for me.
The pearls were rusting anyway.
You told me that pearls never rust.
You said they glimmer and never lose their shine.
You said they stick together and are strong.
You said they are the treasure of the ocean.
You were not talking about pearls when you said this.
You were talking about me.
The pearls were rusting anyway.
You told me that pearls never rust.
You said they glimmer and never lose their shine.
You said they stick together and are strong.
You said they are the treasure of the ocean.
You were not talking about pearls when you said this.
You were talking about me.
The Next Step
There is a freedom that I want you to know.
There is a freedom that I want you to live in.
There is a freedom that I want you to share with the world.
And if you never reach it, how will they ever know?
There is a freedom that I want you to live in.
There is a freedom that I want you to share with the world.
And if you never reach it, how will they ever know?
The Year Of
On January 1 you said, "This is our year."
Right after you finished the R in year, the first rock crumbled.
Then there was a mudslide.
And a nasty storm that washed us all in different directions.
And here we are in October in the rain and wind.
Storms are coming, the worst that we will ever see they say.
And all I can say is, "This is still our year."
Right after you finished the R in year, the first rock crumbled.
Then there was a mudslide.
And a nasty storm that washed us all in different directions.
And here we are in October in the rain and wind.
Storms are coming, the worst that we will ever see they say.
And all I can say is, "This is still our year."
Faithful
You had this planned all along.
You were working behind the scenes.
Even when I thought You had forgotten my wishes.
You were working behind the scenes.
Even when I thought You had forgotten my wishes.
Tuesday, September 15, 2015
Hope Two
I had such high hopes that you were a breath of fresh air
...when you were really a cloud of smoke.
...when you were really a cloud of smoke.
Wednesday, September 9, 2015
I dared.
In the darkness, I dared to believe in the light.
In the pain, I dared to believe in laughter.
In the sorrow, I dared to believe in joy.
In the hunger, I dared to believe in the feast.
In the danger, I dared to believe in a refuge.
In the night, I dared to believe in the dawn.
I dared.
I dared to believe.
In the pain, I dared to believe in laughter.
In the sorrow, I dared to believe in joy.
In the hunger, I dared to believe in the feast.
In the danger, I dared to believe in a refuge.
In the night, I dared to believe in the dawn.
I dared.
I dared to believe.
There is something
There is something warm about you.
There is something that feels like Home about you.
There is something dear and genuine about your heart.
There is something.
There is something that feels like Home about you.
There is something dear and genuine about your heart.
There is something.
to stand in the Light
I never knew the reality of becoming a shadow of one's self.
Until then, it happened to me.
And the only way to break the dance with one's shadow...
...is to stand in the Light.
Until then, it happened to me.
And the only way to break the dance with one's shadow...
...is to stand in the Light.
I Am Still Me
There were pieces of me that were slipping away.
I could not grasp them because of fear.
I thought I had lost myself.
But you, you brought me back to life again.
I am finding me. I am finding who I am.
Because I am still here.
And I am still me.
I could not grasp them because of fear.
I thought I had lost myself.
But you, you brought me back to life again.
I am finding me. I am finding who I am.
Because I am still here.
And I am still me.
Wednesday, July 29, 2015
Last December
I am not quite sure why you are here.
I am not quite sure why you have returned.
I thought this was over.
I am not quite sure why you have returned.
I thought this was over.
Tuesday, July 7, 2015
Use
I deserve better, and yet all I can think of is contacting you to fulfill me for a temporary high.
Wednesday, June 17, 2015
Believe
Believe that there is something new coming your way.
Believe that there is something worth fighting for.
Believe that there is more than what you see.
There is power in believing.
Believe that there is something worth fighting for.
Believe that there is more than what you see.
There is power in believing.
Over and Over
This time I can't see you.
This time I can't play your game.
This time I can't waste my time.
This is over.
It was over a long time ago.
More
I deserve better and I deserve more.
And I am not afraid to be good to myself.
So I am letting you go.
And I am not afraid to be good to myself.
So I am letting you go.
Loner
Continue on the way I have designed and set apart for you.
But you must know, where you go, they can not go.
I wait for you at the mountain top.
But you must know, where you go, they can not go.
I wait for you at the mountain top.
Monday, June 8, 2015
Breaking Free
You are breaking me further than I thought I could be...
...and I am the most free I have ever been.
...and I am the most free I have ever been.
Wednesday, May 13, 2015
Saturday, April 4, 2015
Chaos & Chance
Because going back means that what is to come does not matter.
And it does.
What is about to come is the most important thing.
And it does.
What is about to come is the most important thing.
Blue Bird Pt. 2
You are becoming stronger.
And they do not know how to handle that.
You are making your own way.
And they can not go with you.
They know this so they will try to bring you down.
They will try to sway you from flying away.
But blue bird, you are already flying away and they are on the ground.
And they do not know how to handle that.
You are making your own way.
And they can not go with you.
They know this so they will try to bring you down.
They will try to sway you from flying away.
But blue bird, you are already flying away and they are on the ground.
Heels & A Dress
You deserve so much more.
You deserve so much better.
Do not let their words bring you down to their level.
You deserve so much better.
Do not let their words bring you down to their level.
Amiss
Sometimes I miss people and things out of nowhere.
There are times in my life where I just need something to miss.
And tonight it is you.
There are times in my life where I just need something to miss.
And tonight it is you.
Friday, February 27, 2015
The End
There are times when you feel like you have betrayed yourself.
You have not.
There is no shame in walking away...
Father
"You should probably call him before it is too late.
Do not let your pride or words spoken in anger be the last thing you remember about him."
Do not let your pride or words spoken in anger be the last thing you remember about him."
Wednesday, January 28, 2015
Sunday, January 25, 2015
never.without.you.
...you watch over me while I sleep and you are awake to greet me as I wake.
You are here.
You are with me.
I am never without you.
...in this darkness
In this darkness you have taught me to love deeply and to love fiercely.
What a fierce loyalty you have embedded within me.
You knew this love would bring great suffering, yet You have never been afraid to love me in this darkness.
I am still amazed that You find me in this darkness.
What a fierce loyalty you have embedded within me.
You knew this love would bring great suffering, yet You have never been afraid to love me in this darkness.
I am still amazed that You find me in this darkness.
The Caring
Just know that everything you have ever told me, I have remembered. And it is a damn shame that you can not think to remember what I spoke to you yesterday.
Shotgun
I do not know if I have more patience with you or if I am just completely in love with your honesty.
The 23rd
Sometimes the person you should be trusting the most is the one you just can not seem to give your trust to...
Thursday, January 8, 2015
An October Evening
I do not know what it means to play it safe.
I only know risks and the unknown.
But you are by the book and follow the rules.
You are so predictable.
And this is why we can not be...
I only know risks and the unknown.
But you are by the book and follow the rules.
You are so predictable.
And this is why we can not be...
1314 Riverdale
I sat in our swing last night.
The wind was there.
The moon was there.
The owl was there.
But you, you were not there.
Who knew broken and splintered wood could keep such company.
The wind was there.
The moon was there.
The owl was there.
But you, you were not there.
Who knew broken and splintered wood could keep such company.
Blue Quilt
I would not expect to find so many broken pieces around your bed. It just seemed silly to think such brokenness would still wear a smile.
Blue Boy
You are inconsiderate.
You are rude.
You are cowardly.
You are not in control, but you think you are.
You are afraid of the truth.
You are anxious.
You are in pain.
You are finding a way to be free.
You are talking.
You are listening.
You are not allowing yourself to trust.
You are over complicating things.
You are thinking too much.
You are stumbling.
You are polite.
You are hurting.
You are hurting yourself.
You are lost.
You are a blue boy.
You are rude.
You are cowardly.
You are not in control, but you think you are.
You are afraid of the truth.
You are anxious.
You are in pain.
You are finding a way to be free.
You are talking.
You are listening.
You are not allowing yourself to trust.
You are over complicating things.
You are thinking too much.
You are stumbling.
You are polite.
You are hurting.
You are hurting yourself.
You are lost.
You are a blue boy.
A Breakfast Never Had
You are not in control when you are around her, and it kills you.
You are not able to approach her, and it confuses you.
You are not able to predict her actions, and it makes you lose your way.
But it also pulls you in.
And you just can't figure it out...
Pull/Push
You pull me in then push me away.
You pull me in then push me away.
You pull me in then push me away.
This is not what it means to care about someone so you should probably stop saying that you care about me because your actions prove differently.
Saturday, January 3, 2015
Just About
I was just about to rearrange the furniture for you.
But you never came home.
I am glad I was only just about to rearrange the furniture.
But you never came home.
I am glad I was only just about to rearrange the furniture.
Overdue
The wind is stirring from a new place now.
Leave your pain behind.
It is a new season.
A season of abundance, of overflow, of prosperity...
Spooks
You thought I was a trinket.
And I thought you were a waste of time.
You are still a waste of time.
And I thought you were a waste of time.
You are still a waste of time.
Out of the Woods
We are out of the woods, but the monsters are still behind us.
We will not understand their role in all of this 'til we are clear out of their sight.
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