But One

There was never anyone else.
And I do not think it is fair for you to make everyone who has ever dared to love you after me pay for my mistakes.  

Because there was never anyone else.  

Smudge

I always left your place with lipstick smudged over my left cheek.  

I always considered it better than the last night when I left with mascara smudged over my left cheek.

Always Tomorrow

push. push. push.
fall. fall. fall.

You can always get up tomorrow...

Solstice

I set you as far from myself as possible.
And you stayed far, far away.

A night never felt so long.

The truth lies.

I would not trust my words, they are tainted with whiskey.
I would not trust my words, they are covered in blasphemous honey.
I would not trust my actions, they are sugared in spicy rum.
I would not trust my laugh, it is instilled with the stillest of vodka. 
I would not trust my handshake, it was soaked in gin.
I would not trust my smile, it is glazed in the finest of wines.
I would not trust my tears, they were born of the bottom of a tequila shot.

I would not trust my fears, they were killed with a silent brew...

Depart

I thought I would regret telling you to leave.
But I am so indifferent in the winter...

...that I can not even tell the difference between leaving and arriving. 

Salement De Romantique

"It is shameful how they medicate depression.
I would much rather stumble about and fall in your arms." 

We/They

We are in to simple miracles.

We are in to dulling nerves.

We are in to numbing pain.

We are in to covering scars.

We are in to looking away.

They are in to healing wounds.

They are in to boundless faith.

They are in to limitless generosity.

They are in to wearing cuts and bruises.

They are in to opening belief.

We lost.

They won.

They lost.

We won. 

Back/Forth

How silly you were to just let it all go...

Ozgoli

"I do not know if you are tricking me or if you really are a mystery.  
But I will enjoy it and not try to figure it out."

Steady

Believing is a constant action these days.  

Surround

It is an unraveling of strings upon the hardest wood that surrounds this heart...

2nd Level

You are a friendly smile.
You are a breath of fresh air.
You are a welcoming hug. 
You are a forgiving whisper. 
You are a polite response.
You are a quiet drive in the middle of the night.
You are a glass of cold water after a long run.
You are rather kind, and I really don't know what to think of you. 

After All That I've Done

Every time I go off running, you chase after me.
But this time I am just not sure I want you to run after me...

...that time of year

It is that time of year when she goes into hiding.

It is that time of year when the chill in the air is too much to hold.

It is that time of year when the sun goes into hiding.

It is that time of year when your hands became too much to hold.

It is that time of year when the source goes into hiding.

It is that time of year when her riches are too much to hold.

It is that time of year when the water goes into hiding.

It is that time of year when the boxes are too much to hold.

It is that time of year when her lipstick goes into hiding.

It is that time of year when your lips are too much to hold.   

And They Were New

A new season is coming, and the rain has brought a new opportunity.
So, dance. 
Dance in the rain.  

A New Way

I am not sure pain is our enemy.
And I am not entirely sure being hurt is the worst thing in the world.
And I am not sure that a person is bad just for hurting another.

For I have seen the most beautiful things come from the deepest pain...

Freeways & Frozen Hearts

You are just too close for comfort, and I do not like it.
You are chasing me down, and I do not like it.
You are wanting more, and I do not like it. 
You are seeing more, and I do not like it.

But you...you listen, and I like it so much that I have become addicted.  

New Life

Bright Lights. 
Fast Cars.
Changing Lanes.
Freeways and Late Nights.
New Voices and New Faces.
Walking Sidewalks.
Turning Bridges.

And these new voices and new faces have become my new family, my new surrounding, my new life. 

Too & Too

You are just too precious.
You are just too polite.
You are just too lovely.
You are just too much of what I am not used.
You are just too much of what I need.
You are just too much of what I want. 

And I have always wanted too much...

Soft Sounds

I never knew an echo could be more haunting than a whisper.

...never looking back

Happiness is laughter.
Happiness is smiling.
Happiness is untouchable.
Happiness is contagious.
Happiness is forgettable.
Happiness is leaving.
Happiness is arriving.
Happiness is never looking back...

Slow Me Down

I am too quick. 
I am too fast.
I am too swift. 
And you are the edge that slows me down.

Slow me down...

Never Mind

There was a time when we were together.
There was a time when we knew what we wanted.
There was a time when we let it all slip through our hands.

So, never mind.  
Never mind it at all.  

The Crash

Did you hear the crash?
It was heavy.
It was dangerous.

It happened when she let go of everything she had ever known.

Did you hear the crash?
It was heavy.
It was dangerous.
It set her free.

Unfix

Pieces.
The pieces are falling.
And all we do is stare.

The Middle

It has already begun, but we have a lot we have yet to see.
If this is only the beginning, then we have worlds to discover.
If this is only the beginning, then we are going to find so much more.
If this is only the beginning, then we can not be afraid...

We can not be afraid.

Never Traveled

Dust.
Wind.
Sand.
Storm.
Empty.
Barren.
Dry.
Warren.
Lonely.
And Foreign.

And yet I am still so glad I took the road that was never traveled.

The Outcasts

Sound the trumpet, the beggar and the liar are free at last...

In All Fairness

You creep up on me.
Next time maybe you could warn me.

But that would not be fair would it?

The Journey After Seven

You will trip and fall.
You will jump and skip.
You will crawl and roll.

But you will soon stand tall...

Small

Your smile has become my weakness...

The Storm

Her favorite place to run is in the rain.
Her favorite place to hold hands is in the rain.
Her favorite place to kiss is beneath the oak in the rain.

But there came a day when it rained too much...

K Avenue

It is so refreshing to find someone who does not need to be healed of the past.
It is so refreshing to walk away from the past with open arms.

The Actress

They have fallen in love with you, and you have done absolutely nothing but be yourself...

Same Kind of Different

I am constantly amazed at how the very thing that destroys some people is the very thing that saves others...

The Valley

She let go of what they thought was right and wrong.
She let go of what they would say behind her back.
She let go of what they would whisper in front of her.

She let go of it all.
And it was the best thing she ever did. 

3,000 Miles

I do not remember the last words you said to me.
I am still too busy thinking about how you stole my heart with your first ones...

Stays With Me

I am not looking back, and you should not race forward to find me.
I am moving on, and you should, too.

...you should, too. 

Tell

There is more to be discovered, and you have too much of a hard heart to be gentle with the stories I tell.  

No Apology

You are just too lovely to be seen by anyone other than me.  
But you are not mine. 
You are theirs; you are everyone else's. 

And I just want what I can't have. 

Slip

You are fading and falling from my grip.
Maybe you will find some peace from the fall.  

Worth

The furniture you left behind has so many memories on it.
But those memories are too cheap to sell, so I'll just give them away.

Cabinets

Our connection is dangerous.
Our connection is high.
Our connection is not to be denied.

But you still love me, and we can not be friends until you let go and move on...

Missing Out

You only miss out if you do not belong...

Rather

It is not your strengths that brought you here.
No, it is your weaknesses that could only buy this much gold. 

So They Say

I do not talk to you because I do not know what to say.
Yet the pull and hunger you have for my words
is more than I can take.

Detox

It is rather painful to release you...

In the Risk

And this will be the greatest risk you take; therefore, this will be the greatest reward.  

Enough Already

Let us not going thinking on each other all the time.
You are on my mind enough already...

After You

And the angst within becomes a peaceful sea.
The winds of rage have now calmed.
And for a moment, I am able to forget again.  

Finally Free

You are finding you.  
You are not who you expected to be.

And that is okay, because you are finally free for the first time ever...

Reunion

A life lived in memories is a not a life lived at all. 

And Without

To know that you exist without me is hard to accept, but I am learning that it is loss at it's very greatest...

Together Again

Do not let your pain keep you away from me. 

Huckleberry

It touched me when you decided to trust me…
Because you gave up on keeping such a hardened, guarded heart. 

Clear Windows

It is the most familiar thing to look into eyes that know my pain.
And at the same time, you hardly know anything about me. 

Un-

I said yes to the love that was not afraid of the unknown. 

Never Always

I thought I would always be torn between two loves in my heart, but one has proven stronger….

Chance

Because second chances come at a time when we feel the most unworthy... 

And yet...

You have finally found someone to whom you do not have to prove yourself to.
You do not have to defend yourself or pretend around her. 
And it is so lovely. 

You have no shame and no guilt around her.
You are yourself, and you are free with her.
But she is not yours.
Yet she is so lovely.

Unplanned

You do not fit into my plan, and I am tired of trying to make you see that.
And I am tired of trying to make myself see that. 

And I am tired of running from you. 

To Thee

I guess you just want to be close to me, and you are willing to do whatever it takes just to draw nearer...

Post

If you continue to view in right or wrong, you will continue in a never ending denial of the truth. 

Read It All

There will be days when you will drown in this new found guilt.
And there will be days when you will think you are innocent.

Silly, the games are that we play with ourselves. . .

Whirlwind

You lost control, and you can not even begin to think how you lost it all...

Sold

I have packed my boxes, and I have labeled them, too.
I have read my books, and I have written in them, too.
I have poured my wine, and I have spit it out. 
I have painted the walls, and I have stripped them, too.
I have cleaned the ceiling, and I have pushed it, too.
I have found the glass, and I have broken it.

I have rid this house of you, and I have sold it, too.  

Keeper

"And when you start to doubt, remember my promises.  For every promise will be fulfilled."

Ever

There is freedom in knowing that nothing is forever.  

Ghost

You have become a shadow of all that you used to be... 

A New Start

He packed up his belongings, and he never looked back. 
He realized there was nothing here for him.
Everything he wanted was elsewhere, and it was time to take a risk.  

Field Day

It was more like a tackle.  
And it was not a rough hit.

It was rather freeing to know that being down for the count meant letting go of everything...even you.  

New Office

We still haven't talked about it.
We haven't talked about what happened between you and her and why you were so hurt.

But we don't have to because I already know.
And you know I know.
And that's why you won't talk to me.

I just wish you knew that it's okay for someone else to know your pain.

Time Tells

How did you allow so much time to pass?
How many times did you stare at your phone?
How many times did you count the days?

I'm not coming back to you...

Near/Far

It seems as though the closer I get the further it becomes.

Today, I failed...

I gave it all.
I tried.
And I failed...

But the thing about failing with you is that it means something.
It always means something, and it is not worthless.

Break Away

I am letting you go.
I am allowing you to fall away.

Because I can not do this anymore...

Trusting

I do not need anyone to defend me or protect me.
I do not need you to understand me.

I am simply asking you to trust me. 

Become Nothing

I am simply tired of keeping up with people who will only fade away...

On Set

I'm not doing this for you.
And I'm not doing this for me.

I'm doing this because there is a purpose greater than me that I can not reveal just yet.

Alive

I'm just not afraid to keep changing because where there is change there is life.

Set Designer

I forgave you and moved on.
Why can't you do the same?

Breaking Boundaries

I guess I am just willing to go too far...

Reignited

You lost your passion because you lost sight of your purpose.

The Tables Turn

What the enemy intended for evil, you will use for good.  

Live Within It

You are not afraid of commitment.
You are afraid of the freedom that comes with commitment.

The Addict

What better way to hide an addiction than to have it be the work you do...

The Holy Road

We were not made to walk in holiness.

We were made to walk in brokenness. 

Psst...

I have always had a heart for outcasts and troublemakers and rebels.
I have always had a heart for those who reflect my own.

Still Yours

I know that things are silent between us now.

I know that when we sit in the swing it is merely to listen to the wind.

I know that when your name pops up on my phone, it's just to say Hey.

I know that there is more to talk about.

I know that there will be more to see.

I know that it will not be the same. 

But please know that you have not lost me.

Let Me Go

And if you find out that I was wrong, could you please just not say, "I told you so"?
I am begging you to let me discover the truth.
I am begging you to let me forget what I know.

I am begging you to let me go...

Somehow

When others go, I stay.

Doubt

Now do you see why everything you face must be bigger than you?

Keeper

I made the promise without the intention of ever keeping it.
I met you without the intention of ever keeping you.

But you, you have these intentions of keeping your promises and keeping me.

Alone

I looked around and it occurred to me that everyone I had begun this race with was nowhere to be found...

Still Here

You held on even through the pain.
...even through the pain. 

--xcept

You should not have to explain yourself to the person you love...

Platinum

This was about you not getting what you wanted. 

This was about you not having the best. 

This was about you losing all of your power.

This was never about me...

Tolerance

It should not take one dance to bring it all back.
And I should not have to go through three bottles of wine to forget you...

Keeper

You tend to drop a secret at just the right moment.

And you know that you do not have to whisper around me. 

I just found it mysterious that we have the same secrets, but you'll never know this.

Because unlike you, I keep my secrets.

Especially when I know you have the same ones.  

--holic

I hate when what I do gets in the way of what I do.  

Beyond Thorns

I let the roses you sent me die and wilt away.  
Did you hear me?
I said that I let the roses you sent me die and wilt away.

Isn't that what you left me to do last summer? 

Pieces

My brokenness was all I had to give.
I did not expect something whole and full to come out of this.

Darlin'

People are free around you.
They are awakened by what you say.
And they smile when you laugh.

...because when you laugh, the stars light up.  And who wouldn't take pleasure in watching a star shine?

My Innocent

Don't you think it is time you let go of your shame and guilt?

in love with a hypocrite

My lipstick is a darker shade of red.

My corset is tighter and falls on the wrong side of the bed.

My ideas become thoughts and then they are said.

You don't have to be holy to be a whore.

In fact, I find the self-righteous to be a bore.

Pinot Grigio

The taste of white wine is always accompanied with the memory of you.  

You are both bitter.  

You are both sweet.  

You are both weaker than me...

Our Song

Strum your guitar and let me sing the bridge again.  There are still notes we have yet to hit...

The Gift

The very gift that brings the glory will be the same gift to tragically end this story...

Distance

We fit, and we are apart.  

Tell me, how does one fit so well with another and yet fall so far from them? 

Driveway

Everyone walks away at some point in their life, but you do not know how hard it is to watch you walk away.

You. Me. Us.

The only thing that is worse than a guilty heart is a conflicted heart...

...falling joy

You are so peaceful when you sleep, and I would be lying if I said that wasn't one of the reasons I could not stop myself from falling in love with you.  

Blank

I prefer the unknown.  There is too much comfort in what we know. 

Midst

I prefer the journey over the destination.

Loss

I remembered each evening we spent together those three months, but now I have forgotten the taste of you...

Starre

I am just done wrestling with something that I will inevitably become.

10 Years Ago

...you were a rebel.
...you were lost.
...you didn't know me.

And now
...you're not a rebel.
...you've found something
...and you know my name.