One Thing Remains

I am broken.
I am broken.
I am broken.

...and I have no desire to be fixed.

Almost 36

You are free with your third glass of red wine.
You are free with the holes in your worn-out jeans.
You are free with your clean and spotless room. 
You are free with your return to a craft that demands more than you are willing to give.
You are free in your scene shop with your tools.
You are free with your design schemes and pencils.
You are free with your always dying cell phone.
You are free in your isolation.
You are free in your silence.
You are free in your disbelief and lies.
You are free in not knowing and not asking.

You, my dear. are not free at all.  Would you not think that after almost 36 years, you would want to be free?  

Weighted

The sink or swim slowly became a wandering float...

Field

There will be things that they will not discover until you join them on this journey.  There will be things that they will not know until you begin with them.  There will be things that will not be revealed until you walk a few miles with them.  

They need you...

Trees & Hills

How do you lose something you have never found? I just want to know how to put into words what it will be like when I lose you...

Wall to Wall

There are too many pieces here.
Too many pieces of glass, of broken heels, of worn-down lipstick...

There are too many pieces here. 

Broken Ballerina

I used to dance circles around you...

Glass

I did not find it.  It was never mine. 
It has always been yours.

And it will always be in your hands...

The Gift

I do not want it anymore.
I just don't.

26

My greatest discovery was I found that in the midst of my pain, I could be free.

Way

I do not know if I have chosen this path or if this path has chosen me.  All I know is that I do not wish this road upon any other...

What The Clouds Became

I needed a good storm, and I got one.  
It also set me free.  

Light & Empty

I have become too familiar with destruction and ruin to even recognize the quiet sliver of renewal and reconciliation.

Anti-Side Effect

"There is no need to heal the brokenness.  The brokenness is the healing."

-umph

For once, I do not want to win. 

Ago

Giving up means done with forever.
Giving in means done with now.

Going Under

I could only rest in your arms for so long before you pushed me into the arms of someone else.

Sweet Heart

I can honestly confess that I have never been numb to anything in this life, and it is starting to get the best of me.  I am not the young girl you all fell in love with.  I have had one too many break downs and few too soon broken hearts...

Best

You can all trust me, yet I do not know how to trust myself. 

Push

I did not know your strength until You began to love me...

Blind-Fold

I am not my work, yet my work is me.

I am not what I do, yet what I do is me.

You have fallen in love with what I can do and not who I am.  

Gentle

It has taken me 26 years to finally live life one day at a time...

Ride of Her Life

It took a whole bottle of Merlot for her to forget the words you said to her on that cold November night.  For once, slurred words, over-exaggerated gestures, and toes that can't seem to cross at the right moment are getting her through the night.  And she has finally discovered that emptiness and your arms are one and the same.